He Cares

How are you?
not just good, I mean how are you really?
The real question is: how's life?

The point is that everyone has struggles.

This past fall, I was a lead in a play. My character was a selfish, confused, ignorant, and strong willed teenage girl who had just lost her father. She struggles throughout the play about God and who He is, if He cares, or if He even exists. At one point in her struggle, she tells the doctor, whom she has grown quite fond of, that "He cares more about the sparrows than He does about us."

At times this may seem very true, but it's not. In Matthew 10:29 we see that we are worth more than many sparrows.

The truth is... He Cares.

Jeremiah 29:11--- For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

One struggle that is very close to me now is about my grandad, Babbo. He was diagnosed with alzheimer's disease in 2004. If you don't know what that is, it is a disease in the brain where neurons become ineffective. It starts by affecting the person's memory and mental complexity, then moves to confusion, and then moves into the muscles. There is no cure and no way to stop it, so basically you watch your family member dying while they are still alive.

If you have ever seen Lonesome Dove, Babbo was almost exactly like the character Gus. He was always strong willed, hardworking, friendly to everyone, and loved cold PBRs. Now, Babbo still remembers my name, but mainly sits at his breakfast table alone staring out the window at a wall all day. He can't remember what he did 20 minutes before or who he ate dinner with once he returns home. And recently he has had a hard time swallowing. He can't eat much and his food has to be mashed up. He struggles to even drink half a beer (which was his favorite).

I know that he is not getting better, but I know God will take care of him and me. I know that this rough experience today will help me with an event I will face tomorrow. It's true that now I don't understand why this has to happen, but I do understand that the outcome will be His perfect will. And there is nothing better than that.